two points of your story, i see that no matter what you do, you always seem to find eachother after 4 years have past, but there is always something that seperates you after you get back into a relationship. it took me a long time to get over my first ex, and i believe that is it mainly because i was living in the past. during the time that we were together, i was pure bliss and that is what i treasure. all the memories. now ask yourself, do you treasure those memories? of course you do, but are you living only from those memories? sure they are the happy times of your relationship but what about the bad? there must have been reason why you two never stayed together all those times. does the good out weigh the bad or the other way around. hopefully that will help you decide. raverboy

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...this is just my perspective on the situation...