First of all, equazcion, I'm a guy.. (that's really embarrassing that I have to say that, lol; guess it's strange for such thoughts coming out of a guy or something. Your situation related a lot to mine; in fact, I found some of the similarities striking.)

Second of all, I applaud your decision; however, I feel as if to play the role of devil's advocate once again.. it's good for you to make sure that you're doing what it is you want.

Chlorine posted some GREAT words. The odds really aren't in your favor.. especially if she has been with this guy for so long. And the pain of rejection... well, I think Chlorine did a great job at trying to explain that too (for it is impossible to explain mental torture that conveys to everyone; it is different to everyone and different experiences unlock it).

I would most definitely heed Chlorine's warning; it's the best advice I've heard on the subject. Even if infused with new hope, remember it is still an uphill battle. Rejection has its downsides... huge downsides. But I think the pain that comes from rejection, albeit it is more intense for its duration, does or at least can go away. I suppose that with rejection you tried and you know your answer (although it isn't the answer you want, you got an answer) rather than always wondering if that answer were yes.

It's a tough call; I would consider playing a bit of a waiting game, to see if something happens between them. But how could you know, if she never says anything about her boyfriend? And, I don't know... that game could put you down a very, very bleak road...

I wish you the best of luck. I think that, after very close consideration, it may be the best thing to do. And if people said it wasn't the best choice, if your mind is set, would it matter what any of us said anyway?

I'll leave you with something one of my good friends told me not too long ago (ironically, it was when discussing my own situation). It went something like this: "Love sometimes makes you do things that defies everything. Love puts you through such intense feelings that can transcend logic and reason."

And you know what? It may be for the better.

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