Well I think money is sort of a petty issue b/c I don't believe that we should even be arguing about it b/c I don't care about it. Like I come from a poor family but I don't care that much about spending my money. I don't know if she necessarily wants to spoil me but she has paid for her share as well for me. THe thing is I feel she contributes so much and I think one of the reasons why I kept bringing up before that I paid for this and this and this was kind of my way of saying that I contribute to the relationship by doing this and this for her. BUt in a way that was a horrible mistake which i deeply regret b/c now it makes her feel like I would get her food or whatever b/c of the simple fact that I could say I did that for her rather than out of the goodness of my heart.

This is the hard part b/c she will never accept something from me again b/c she's j/ stuck on that thought. But I've tried still to offer to spot her on stuff ya know j/ to be polite and b/c I wanted to but she j/ rejects every single one of my gestures.

It's nice to hear this from a female's perspective, but I guess the reason why I'm still fighting for us is b/c we have had good memories and that's worth sticking around for hoping this will blowover. But I've already told her that the ball is in her court b/c she knows I wanna be with her and it's really up to her how this relationship goes b/c if she can't decide to let it go then there's nothing I can do about it.

Thanks for the advice by the way, it means alot. I don't really know how to handle this so hearing people's opinions and thoughts means alot.