Hey everyone,

I really hope someone can help me. Im a 29 yr old guy that has known this 25 yr old girl for about a year now. we work for the same company but in different departments. To make a long story short we started dating around New Years and since then things have been going very well. But i have always had a hesitation or feeling that she wasnt being completely honest with me in how she feels about me/us.

A bit of history.. She was married to a guy and then separated about a year ago. Since then she was dated a couple of times and got involved with a guy that i think she had pretty strong feelings for. that ended. Since we have been dating i can feel that she still has feelings for him in the way she looks at him. ( he works for the same company).

So anyway. Since we started dating i have fallen head over heels for this girl. So about a month ago i told her i loved her. She responded by telling me that she loved me too. It was FABULOUS. she is always telling me how well i treat her and how i spoil her. she misses me when we are apart (which is not for long or very often), and tells me she loves me. Anyway. things have been going well, but every now and then she gets really distant from me and pushes me away.

This week being one of those times. So i did the unthinkable. I read her journal. I know i shouldnt have, but its been tearing me up inside. So in it she talks about the guy she was dating last year and how she still has feelings for him she things but knows that he is bad for her. she also talks about her ex husband and that his birthday is coming up and how they used to celebrated it together every year. At one point she states that if given the chance would she see if they could make things work? she answered MAYBE.
anway then she goes on talking about me. how much i spoil her, how well i treat her, and how she enjoys spending time with me. she wrote about how i told her i loved her, and sayed that she told me she loved me because she couldnt hurt my feelings. and doesnt want to hurt me, etc etc. K so my problem is.. WHAT THE HECK DO I DO??? I would rather be hurt and know the truth rather than be made a fool of.

Do i confront her? not telling her that i read her journal but just ask for her honesty and ask her if i am what she wants? or do i just leave it alone???

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP!!!