Alright this may be a lot, but I need someone's advice before Memorial Day weekend on this problem.

1st- we're engaged
2nd- He thinks that I'm not thankful, I don't tell him what he needs to hear, and I don't want to spend time with him.
3rd- I tell him thank you for everything all the time and mean it pretaining to his love and things he does for me. I wrote him a poem but last weekend, and it contained enough emotion and thought that he cried after reading it, and right now the only reason I haven't come to see him was the fact that my parents had limited me on the car since I don't have one myself. Mind you that whenever he asked something of me I have done it. I've spent a year and a half driving back and forth from my parents to his house spending gas money and whatnot to be with him. In the past week I haven't been able to do that.

Now, I have a weekend where I can get out and spend a couple days with him. My question is should I? If yes, then I also have one more problem: He plays Dungeons and Dragons and is going to be gone that whole Saturday. That would leave me at his place with nothing to do. So do I stay home and be miserable, or go to his place have him yell at me then be okay and be miserable? Please help me!!