Thanks to all that replied to my post. To make a long story short, I had a long talk with her and we ended up breaking up... I was devestated (even though it was I who initiated the breakup) and could not stop crying and thinking about it. Well eventually she called me back and we talked for a long time... we got back together, but I don't know if either way to go was the right thing. I'm still really confused about it all, but deep down I love her immensely, and I will be going home in 3 weeks anyways to see her. The long distance stuff has been getting to me, and her and I have been together for so long, yet we're still young and I don't know if we should date other people to discover that it is with eachother that our futures lie... she seems absolutely sure that she wants to be with me, but i'm unsure.... it scares me to know that I might be with only one person for the rest of my life, regardless of how much I love and care for her. However, when I broke up with her, I felt like I was being extremely selfish and like a huge as*hole.... it was one of the worst feelings I have ever felt. When we were getting off the phone a little while ago(after we got back together), she told me that she still doesn't understand why the whole night happened the way it did, but that she is sure it all happened for a reason.

I'm confused beyond belief.... however, when we did talk about the whole career thing, she said that it didn't matter if I became famous or had lots of money, she would never completely like it, but she would never leave me over it all, which leaves me with some reassurance. To answer the post before this one though, no she didn't grow up poor or anything, but she grew up in a small one-floor house and her parents were always hounding her about how if she wanted something, she would have to go earn the money to get it and they wouldn't pay for hardly anything.... which I feel is both a good and bad way of doing things, but that's just my opinion. Anyways, what do you guys think about the events that transpired, I would be really interested to hear an outsiders opinion just as you guys have been nice enough to have been doing here for me.

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