Well he z my husband his name is Izan.
I know him from last 11 years. We were supposed to be married but at that time i had a better proposal from someone else and i married that other guy (BCOZ IZAN AND I HAD PRBLMS HE IS A COP AND I NEVER LIKED HIS JOB I NEVER WANTED TO MARRY A COP. PLUS HE ALSO STARTED HIS JOB WITHOUT CONSULTING ME. HE WAS DIVORCED AND HAD A CHILD. I ACCEPTED THAT FACT AND IN MY HEART STARTED FEELING THAT THIS IS A SACRIFICE THAT IM MAKING AND NOW HE SHOULD ALSO MAKE SACRIFICES FOR ME. BUT WHEN HE DID NOT QUIT HIS JOB I HAD THIS FEELING THAT HE DOESNT CARE ABOUT ME)
Keeping my grudges un my heart i married another guy though at that time apparently everything was good between me and Izan.
It was a shock for him. He tried to contact me but i shut him away. After 2 years i contacted him and he motivated me to get divorce and marry him though he himself was also married to another woman and had a kid too. (I GOT DIVORCE NOT BECAUSE OF HIM BUT BECAUSE MY HUSBAND WAS NOT GOOD AND IT WAS AN ABUSIVE RELATION) But I gave Izan this impression that i have got divorced because of him. (Well actually if he wouldn't have been there i would have never had courage to end my marriage) He had promised me that after my divorce he will marry me and will divorce hos wife too but then he refused. I left him. Then he came back to me himself and told me that he will divorce his wife and marry me as i was his childhood love. After sometime he even told me that he has divorced his wife but later i found out that he lied. He accepted his mistake and told me that he will end his relationship but not so soon as he couldnt due to social norms and values.
I felt cheated again and stopped talking to him but then after a few months i went back to him and told him that he should marry me too even if he is not divorcing his wife. (BECAUSE I HAD THE FEELING THAT WHO WILL MARRY A DIVORCED WOMAN) plus (POLYGAMY IS ALLOWED IN OUR RELIGION AND COUNTRY LAW)
I told him that he should announce about our marriage. He got married to me in December,2016 but still has not announced. He says that he will get transferred to another city and take me there with him and then he will announce and also divorce that other lady. (HE SAYS THAT HE IS NOT LIVING WITH HER)
We are not living together, he just comes for four five days in a month to my house. We live in different cities. I have announced my marriage in my whole circle. All this is tearing me apart. Simetimes when he doesnt talk to me at night i feel cheated i feel that he will again leave me alone i cant trust him i keep on fighting with him all the time. He says to me to be patient and trust him. He says that as he is a cop so he is busy but i cant trust that, i keep on doubting that he might be with her thats why he is not answering my calls and all. Though he later on answers and explains what he had been doing. He always tells me to wait. What should i do? Iam just going crazy.
Please advice
Should i trust him?
How should i behave with him?
I have asked him many times if iam the one breaking his marriage but he would alway say that he is not happy and that he motivated me to get divorced and if he would've been happy why would he talk to me in the first place. Even then i can't trust him.