Decided to let go... - Love Forum

Pettit-Papillon · #1 (**permalink**) 25-03-08, 05:53 AM

After all those months when I was crying ,and didn't know what is going on I finally opened my eyes.Checked his mail,and found out that he don't love me... It hurts only because he didn't told me that,plus ,all the time he was saying he loves me ... I found out he lied me ,from the beginning...First it was really shock for me,I didn't understand why?Though he made me a part of his life.He introduced me to his familly,friends.He was my prince,I was his princess.He was my one and only.And I?Maybe yes... But when I found out that everything what he said was a lie ,it destroyed my world.My perfect world.It's hmm 4 or 5 days now,since I told him it's over... He wasn't even a man to talk about it... He just erased me like I was nothing... It hurts... But I know I shouldn't cry for someone like him...He did everything what he could do wrong.Everything.But sometimes I just think...About those good moments... Those places where we were together...Those words he said...But after all,it's also my fault... I let somebody hurt me,I let myself belive him...Trust him... Now I have to pay for that... But I know time cures everything...Even broken hearts,so I am.And I will survive,like Aretha Franklin.The worst I have behind me...

Dancer · #2 (**permalink**) 25-03-08, 07:55 AM

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Originally Posted by Pettit-Papillon

After all those months when I was crying ,and didn't know what is going on I finally opened my eyes.Checked his mail,and found out that he don't love me... It hurts only because he didn't told me that,plus ,all the time he was saying he loves me ... I found out he lied me ,from the beginning...First it was really shock for me,I didn't understand why?Though he made me a part of his life.He introduced me to his familly,friends.He was my prince,I was his princess.He was my one and only.And I?Maybe yes... But when I found out that everything what he said was a lie ,it destroyed my world.My perfect world.It's hmm 4 or 5 days now,since I told him it's over... He wasn't even a man to talk about it... He just erased me like I was nothing... It hurts... But I know I shouldn't cry for someone like him...He did everything what he could do wrong.Everything.But sometimes I just think...About those good moments... Those places where we were together...Those words he said...But after all,it's also my fault... I let somebody hurt me,I let myself belive him...Trust him... Now I have to pay for that... But I know time cures everything...Even broken hearts,so I am.And I will survive,like Aretha Franklin.The worst I have behind me...

First let me say...dzien dobry,prosze wybaczyc moj staby polski.
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Pettit-Papillon · #3 (**permalink**) 25-03-08, 08:52 AM

Po dwoch zdaniach nie moge stwierdzic,ze jest zly

Narazie jest ok . Dla mnie to juz chyba dobranoc,bo jest 2 w nocy

U mnie rzecz jasna

Dancer · #4 (**permalink**) 25-03-08, 10:07 AM

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Po dwoch zdaniach nie moge stwierdzic,ze jest zly

Narazie jest ok . Dla mnie to juz chyba dobranoc,bo jest 2 w nocy

U mnie rzecz jasna

YOU ARE SOOOOO COOL!!!! D

DoesntMatter · #5 (**permalink**) 25-03-08, 10:10 AM

Can someone translate for the non Polish among us?

Pettit-Papillon · #6 (**permalink**) 25-03-08, 10:23 AM

Doesntmatter : I'm sorry

We were just talking that he doesn't speak polish very well , and I told him it's 2 in the night (now it's 3:22) here where I am

Don't be angry

MadKat · #7 (**permalink**) 25-03-08, 06:18 PM

"Is not your fault if you cant see the eyes that cheat you..."

Pettit-Papillon · #8 (**permalink**) 25-03-08, 07:20 PM

Well said ,MadKat

blues414 · #9 (**permalink**) 26-03-08, 12:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Pettit-Papillon

After all those months when I was crying ,and didn't know what is going on I finally opened my eyes.Checked his mail,and found out that he don't love me... It hurts only because he didn't told me that,plus ,all the time he was saying he loves me ... I found out he lied me ,from the beginning...First it was really shock for me,I didn't understand why?Though he made me a part of his life.He introduced me to his familly,friends.He was my prince,I was his princess.He was my one and only.And I?Maybe yes... But when I found out that everything what he said was a lie ,it destroyed my world.My perfect world.It's hmm 4 or 5 days now,since I told him it's over... He wasn't even a man to talk about it... He just erased me like I was nothing... It hurts... But I know I shouldn't cry for someone like him...He did everything what he could do wrong.Everything.But sometimes I just think...About those good moments... Those places where we were together...Those words he said...But after all,it's also my fault... I let somebody hurt me,I let myself belive him...Trust him... Now I have to pay for that... But I know time cures everything...Even broken hearts,so I am.And I will survive,like Aretha Franklin.The worst I have behind me...

i am in almost the same position as you! i checked his mail STUPIDLY, bad idea, and found out he has been sleeping with another girl while he told me to wait for him. the emails started the day we broke up, and i know they have been hooking up even before then. in the messages the girl was telling my ex to break up with me and he was laughing about me and stuff, it was SO rude. we definitely deserve better. i can't even cry, i have yet to cry since reading the messages yesterday. im too full of anger and rage to be upset, it's almost a great feeling. im just waiting for the time when ill just break down. but really, im glad that you are planning on moving on. now you can start fresh and not worry if someone loves you or not. the guys sounds like a pretty big JERK and you need someone that will treat you like a queen, better than a princess. good luck, it will take time but it's so worth it :-)

Pettit-Papillon · #10 (**permalink**) 26-03-08, 09:56 AM

I'm just wondering how do You know that I am moving?

Yes,I am moving to another city...Actually to another country

But so and so I would see him,because he's in France so... It doesn't matter.
I'm not full of anger,maybe sometimes,but mostly I'm just very disappointed about him...about this whole situation... Tomorrow I'm going back to school and now will start the whole "explaining thing"...Everyone will ask why and bla bla.... The good thing is that I'm the good one...But sometimes I regret that,because maybe if I was the bad one I wouldn't suffer so much...Life is just so complicated :/

DoesntMatter · #11 (**permalink**) 26-03-08, 10:29 AM

It's too bad things like this happen to people like you. You seem like a good person from your posts

PS- I saw your pictures in the gallery and

You'll have a lot of guys to be able to sift through so just be sure to keep an eye out for the good ones

Pettit-Papillon · #12 (**permalink**) 26-03-08, 10:50 AM

Doesntmatter belive me I've heared that million times ,and I just stopped to belive in that because every man I've met was a bad guy... Besides I don't want somebody to be with me just because I'm pretty ... And I think I'm blind , because I don't see anybody who is good and wants to be with me

And besides (again

) I think now I have to fix my broken heart and arrange my life before I will decide to be with somebody.But thanks for Your good words

It always helps to be appreciated by somebody

DoesntMatter · #13 (**permalink**) 26-03-08, 10:57 AM

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Besides I don't want somebody to be with me just because I'm pretty ...

The guys who pursue you the hardest and most will be the ones who just want to be with you because you are pretty. You know, the ones you can turn away numerous times and insult and it seemingly rolls off their back, because the don't give a shit to begin with what you think so it's easy for them to do. On the other hand, the ones that like you for something more won't be as persistent when you reject them a couple of times or give them bad vibes

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And I think I'm blind , because I don't see anybody who is good and wants to be with me

Well it's better to feel unwanted and be pretty than be unwanted and be ugly

Pettit-Papillon · #14 (**permalink**) 26-03-08, 11:05 AM

Of course I can say I'm in a good position.But for example with my ex I belived him so because at the beginning he told me he don't want to force me to do nothing,because he wants to show me that he's with me not because of sex or something... And all the time he was so gentle and etc. But after months it all came out.I was just a toy for him nothing else... But how couldn't I belive him? Especially if I fell in love with him...He used me,now I know it...But simply I couldn't avoid it. It's also bad if You are with someone and You don't trust him.Isn't it so?

DoesntMatter · #15 (**permalink**) 26-03-08, 11:51 PM

Chill out, I'm not saying it's your fault, that's just the way a lot of guys are you didn't decide that did you? However you do have some responsibility in your selection

It's like when it was revealed Eliot Spitzer had a call girl and I was watching the news with my parents, I told them Spitzer's wife was partly responsible for using bad judgement. My mom was like "WTF!?" I just meant that there is some responsibility in choosing