I feel like I need some sense knocked into my head about my relationship with my bf. This may be a little long but I'll try to shorten the details as much as I can.... thanks in advance, for reading.
We've been together almost a year on April 10th.
He cheated on me with his ex who he broke up with, in March of last year. But he's never admitted to the cheating. I feel like he may still be in love with his ex but I can't be too sure about that.
We moved in together with each other in June of Last year. I love him so much and have put so much into our relationship that I don't know why we can't work out. I try everyday for us to make things work out. All of the cheating, came out on New Years Eve. He has a birthday in Late January, even after all of the problems we've had, I wanted to make sure he had a great birthday evening. I bought him a few shirts for his birthday, took him to a movie, then wanted to take him out to eat for dinner, then drinks later. He said he wasn't hungry, proceeds to drive to the strip club.... I told him that I didn't want to see him touching all on the dancers. So we argued, he got mad blamed me for "ruining everything" and drove us home. At home, he accused me "trying to change him" when all i was asking for was respect in our relationship. The problem is, he took me to a strip club once before and he was rubbing all on the dancers thighs as she danced in front of him while I was there. I felt so disrespected. And after all that planning for his birthday when he did nothing for my birthday, I felt so upset. For my birthday, he and I, one of his sons, and my 2 daughters and sister all went out to eat. I had to pay. I don't know if I am being ridiculous about that but I felt that since it was my birthday, I would hope he would take me contribute.
The worst part about all of this is how he treated me a weekend I was at a jewelry show. MY show was over at 6pm. Then we were supposed to go out to celebrate our 5 month anniversary. He tells me he was at a birthday party and didn't get home til after 10:30 pm. Little did I know, he took his ex to that party. Then the following day, he goes and takes her furniture shopping, buys her a couch and dining room table. And while I was offering up the money I made from the show, he tells me he didn't need it but only to ask me days later for $1000 because he needed it by noon. I told him that Ididn't have it and spent it on the bills. He got mad at me and told me he was going to ask that ex for the money.
I question my reasonings for staying and his reasonings for being with me. Early on in the relationship, actually when I was moving in with him....we share bought rental property in a town nearby, I thought he and I were going to split the down payment to the property. When I mentioned that to him, he dumps for it. He told me that he wanted someone that would "contribute".
Someone please help me. I want to believe everyday that he loves me and is not with me for his own benefit. I do love him and need to know if you all feel like he loves me. Please help me