the toys

[lilwing89]

ok i feel pretty weird and embarrassed for admitting it but i must..so i want sex toys.

im a bisexual guy and none of my friends(except 1 girl who is lesbian) or family know this. i feel pretty bad keeping it a secret...i know because i "tested" them to see if they really like gay people or anything, my best friend said "i hate gay people" and all this crap that i was offended by...

hah, if you met me in person you would never guess i was bi sexual/gay or anything. i dont talk like a "gay guy" and i dont have any feminine traits.

my mom says i better not turn gay or anything and whenever i watch something about gay people on tv she sighs in disgust and all this. and she says techno is for gay people(not knowing im bisexual) and although its not and its for everyone im still offended. its bullshit!
she says she would kick me out the house for something like that..im only 16 and i got the whole world ahead of me. that would completely **** up my life. my dad lives in a different state and parents are divorced(we live in the us) florida i should say. which is about 3000 miles away.

so what? im attracted to guys and girls just about the same...im attracted to girls a little more than guys though...i did tell one of my ex's in the past out of guilt..and she told me she wouldnt tell anyone. but she told my brother and all my friends when we broke up! luckily she is known for lying so i said she is probably just mad cause i broke up with her. they believed me too..that really saved my ass!

my last girlfriend..i want to tell her but i dont want the same thing to happen. im afraid she wouldnt accept me for me... you guys have no idea what we go through...IT SUCKS!!!!!!!! and also if she told everyone, they would believe her because we just moved here and they know her better than me and she is a trustworthy person! and word spreads fast in a small town(mine is population:1000)

2 words could change how everyone feels about you...all your friends would hate you and you are damned to hell by your very own god. its kindof like looking into a crystal ball and accepting your own death.

the other thing is though, ive never actually done anything with a guy...im just attracted to them. and i fantasize about them too. and i look at the gay porn sometimes....
its strange because after i get an orgasm from masturbating i lose interest in all that..and i lose interest in like anything sexual and like my mind turns completely against all that stuff(sometimes i delete ALL my porn and then wish i didnt)...but 5 minutes later im back to the same old me..anyone else get the same feelings??? i guess that is what you would call "being horny"?

well back to why i posted this..i always go to sex toy stores online and look at sex toys...i want them badly...lots of them lol...but im only 16..and to buy them you need to be 18...GRR i wish i could get atleast 1..i feel like i cant wait 2 years....and it'll prolly be longer than that cause if i buy one off the internet my mom might open it and find out what it is...and there isnt sex toy stores anywhere around...
when i was visiting my old hometown one of my friends who is 16 bought herself a sex toy(this is the lesbian one i mentioned up there/\) at the spencers store in the mall. i shoulda bought one too..but i woulda been sooo embarrassed!!
god it sucks.....
im in pain...emotionally..

[lilwing89]

oh yea and about my ex; i told her i was just saying that to get her to not like me (mean but what would you call what she did?)

[shh!]

The best way to keep something secret is to keep it to yourself, which - considering the size of the town you live in - I would advise you to do. There is a lot of homophobia out there, especially in small towns, and until you are older and more prepared to accept the consquences of living an alternative lifestyle publicly, I would just keep quiet about it.

I do want to say that you are a 16 year old virgin, and there is often a lot of confusion about sexuality at your age. It could be that you are simply just very ummm... horny (for lack of a better word) and are willing to stick it just about anywhere, and perhaps you really aren't as bisexual as you think.

[lilwing89]

yea maybe...ive thought that before.

can you really stick something up your butt and be straight though?

[XPixiedustX]

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Originally Posted by lilwing89

yea maybe...ive thought that before.

can you really stick something up your butt and be straight though?

that's a good point...but still maybe you wanna wait around till you can actually be with a guy to see if you enjoy that..everyone goes through phases..and i agree you shoudl probably keep mum about it till your a lil older, and can handle the criticism that you most probably will recieve....most ppl in small towns can be close minded and it's hard enough being a teenager..now add to that you family not accepting who you are....as far as your current gf goes...unless u really really trust her and have been with her for a while you might not want to tell her....

[shh!]

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Originally Posted by lilwing89

can you really stick something up your butt and be straight though?

Straight women do it all the time. So do men in prison.

[BlackRose]

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Originally Posted by lilwing89

can you really stick something up your butt and be straight though?

It's all a matter of preference. I am sure there are a good handful of straight guys who enjoy anal play. It doesn't mean you are gay. Pleasure is pleasure. If you like something and it isn't unhealthy, I say do it.

[Ellynn]

Right now your quite young.....so its normal to be turned on by alot of different sexual things. Once you experience them you can go from there. Yeah I would keep quiet about it because some people are very judgemental....and small towns ......well they can drive you nuts when people know your business.

As for the anal thing.......toys are toys. If you want to experiement with them I say do it. Just be careful..... (Make sure they are used properly).
You would be surprised at the amount of guys who have things "stuck" in them that used to come into the X-ray Department that required surgery to remove them......

And honestly I don't think its necessarily a gay thing. There are straight men who like anything to do with anal....giving or recieving and there are some women that are down for it all.... I guess for a guy.....anal is supposed to be alot better then for a woman.... Thanx to the placement of your prostate gland.... ALot of men thinks its taboo....or that it makes them gay......but like the other people said.....pleasure is pleasure....and if it feels good go for it.

[BlackRose]

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Originally Posted by Ellynn

pleasure is pleasure....and if it feels good go for it.

I agree with this completely and state it often. If it gets you off and isn't harming you or others,then go for it.


Just a disclaimer with candles though. For anyone who uses one to masturbate, do not use scented or colored ones for any reason. You will have quite a mess on your hands if you do. I recently read about a woman who used a colorful candle to masturbate and she ended up with a very big problem down below. Always think about what you use long before you use it. There are drawbacks to just about anything you use.