yes. you are getting better. you are working on yourself
and at some point you will hopefully be able to laugh at yourself for everything you tried.
you understand a little better now and it will come slowly as you progress.
sometimes it feels like shit, not being able to do it now when youve already been at it right then.
I remember being at a school party and trying to chat up women
Making a TOTAL fool of myself.
Then a girl at that party drove me home as a favour for a friend of mine.
And we talked about it and how i was making a fool out of myself.
I told her i know and that i was trying. And its better trying and making yourself better then to not try and stay the same idiot.
And that was the first thing i did right that evening. It impressed her and she was out of words.
It was the first time when i was honest that evening too. The first time i was opening up.
so believe me if i know how shitty that shit feels. I have seen myself at it and I have seen countless other men struggle the same way. On forums and in the real world too.
Id suggest you watch ZAN PERRIONS foundation of attraction series if you can get them.
If you think I am insulting you with my post or bashing you: You do not get the point.
I am not here to insult or bash anyone. I offer up my free time to help. Take from my post what is useful to you.
If you are angry about my post or myself, then please stop and think how that happened. Usually that is the way the brain responds if a critical belief system is challenged (its called cognitive dissonance). If you have trouble with it please answer in the thread. I will come back to you.