Originally Posted by crazyjoe
W. Hayward -
I assume you are trying to help, but It seems like your perception is a very negative one.
Actually, Crazyjoe, No. What do you think I am? Stupid? I'm not going to play into that little "help" game of yours. My perception of you is neither positive or negative because I don't give a damn about your problems one way or the other. And I have a very good reason for not, which I'll share with you, even though some might feel disclosing the technique is to destroy the procedure.
Generally, the very FIRST step in reforming yourself is to collapse your ego. You're nowhere even close to that. Yet. You're hiding yourself and your issues behind bucketsful of pseudo-psycho-****ing-babble bullshit, running around in circles being a counseling whore to anyone who'll dance that dance with you and reinforce your reasoning. That's your ego at work and it's dead wrong.
To get to where you want to go, you have to surrender. You have to believe anything and everything you think you know is wrong. You have to be at an utter and complete loss for words or reasons or speculations. You have to break. Your ego has to collapse. Totally. THEN you can start the long and difficult process of putting it back together into a form that is consonant with YOU.
So far, all I've heard from you is a bunch of crap about how you're ****ed up this way or that way; an annoying measure of self-pity; and a lot of running around looking for more language to say more of the same. And your a pretender. You pretend to want to talk about one thing, in LF's case, connecting with her, but end up talking only about you. I'm sure you mislead listeners and manipulate conversations that way a LOT. You're in a loop and don't even know it. As long as you're in that loop, everything you say is WRONG. Anything you do is WRONG. And I don't have the least bit of compassion or sympathy for your position.
Now, stick that in the orifice of your choice and COPE with it.
(And, by my lights, THAT'S the issue: You CAN'T cope with someone not caring.)
And, oh yeah: Until you completely stop using any and all drugs for at least 90 days, you won't know or discover shit. You'll just continue being the frantic little hamster running mindlessly in its wheel.
WAKE UP!
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