I need some help!!!

[LunaStarDust82]

I know I'm a n00b here - but I'm pretty much goin' insane, and I wanna get some opinions of other people.

I've been with the guy I'm with now (Brandon), for ~2 yrs. We were together for about a year, then he left me for about 2 months and we got back together again. So like, it's not quite 2 yrs, but somewhere around here. We're currently living together.

So anyways - the other nite, my best guy friend (John) told me he loved me over IM. I'm like :eek: Anyways, a little history on us...
We were in a class together in HS, Chemistry, and I really liked him, but held it back cuz I just thought he was too good for me, I ended up tellin' him right as he was getting involved with this other girl Courtney (they weren't together JUST yet, but it was still a lil' too late). He said he really liked me to, but he thought the same about me... but since he's getting involved with Court, he feels bad. And I TOTALLY understood that at the time.

John and Courney moved to FL (we're in PA), and they were supposed to be married May '03. Last Xmas they came home for a visit, Courtney ended up meeting her ex (who used to beat her / cheat on her no less!). When they got back (in January) she announced to John she was movin' back to PA to be with him. We talk every day for hours on end on AIM, sometimes on the phone. I can tell him ANYTHING, he feels the same with me. He's really awesome.

He made plans to come up here Wed (26th) and he got in at 11pm. That nite I walked down to his 'rents house (they're about a 10 minute walk from where I live), to see him. He gave me a hug and said he loved me more than anything and I meant the world to him. We made plans to hang out last nite.

His Mom is very protective when he's visiting, she doesn't like him seein' anyone else - so like, yesterday, he got on AIM and asked me if I could come over for a little - cuz his 'rents were picking up his lil' bro somewhere. So I did. We just pretty much hung out and talked. But then somehow, towards the end, we somehow got lip-locked. I don't know, it felt so right. And I KNOW it's wrong cuz I have a bf (hell... I'm living with the guy!). We're both SO against cheating too, neither of us have cheated in the past.

Anyways, he came over later than nite. My boyfriend got tired and went to bed earlier, my other friend, Bill, was also over. Anyways, nite got late, Bill left, and John and I took a walk. And we ended up kissing again.

All in all, he's real serious about getting together with me. And I would LOVE to get together with him. I can tell you some info on the guy I'm with now (I didn't wanna throw it in here, cuz this post is long as is). He has good intentions, but lately, I just dunno. And yes, the problems have been before John broke me the news.

The difficult part is, he's in Clearwater, FL, I'm in Marietta, PA. He's goin' to school there, has an awesome job. So I don't think he can move from here. Right now, I'm locked in a lease with my apt, but I got laid off and am still trying to get a job (YAAY! Interview sometime this week!!) I have about 3 good friends I'd know I'd miss here - and my family... I'd definatly miss them.

What's everyone's take? I know you'll probably need info about my bf right now to drawl a really good answer, and I can give that info if you need - I know this post is getting waaaaay too long. Thanx everyone for reading...

[LightOn]

Is it John that is great, or is it the connection you have with him that is great?

[TonyTheTigerOI]

Look, if you feel so stongly for FL boy, and he is the same for you, then trust me, he'll be making visits to see you often enough. Live like a she-player for a while. The man you really want is a thousand miles away - talk to him [not too much, you want to be a challenge so he doesn't get tired of you], and live in your appartment. If your BF isn't good for you, then why sell your soul to him?

I would advise, however, drifting appeart from him, and letting him move on with his life asap - its just the right thing to do.

[sfalexi]

This is like reading the script to Dawson's Creek or some show like that . . . . creepy . . .