Finaly The Truth!!!!!

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I know it Long so Thanks for reading!!

Hey guys i know you guys think im anoying or some thing? After so many problems as you can read in the following link

Some thing wrong with me???
What wrong with her this time??

I know the truth now. The truth is that her ex-boyfriend treated her like that but way wrose he almost killed her once but choking until she almost died and he had astma attact she didn't even think of ehr self but helped him. He done alot to her so bad i can't image it. I want to kill that guy my self!!

Couple of days ago i called her and told her i give her one last chance. befor i said that she said Thanks to me like heaps of time i ask why? she said you rescue me from darkness you shine the way out for me nwo i m can be my true self. I really believe her becuase the first time i met her that was 4 years ago her personality was like that, that voice was her true self. I've been waiting for her 4 years and now to think about it, it hurts. Why does it hurt? I didn't mention this in any of my threads tet but here i go. she said this to me " is every thing we shared built gone just liek the wind even that spot in your heart? " I said yeh i don't feel any thing it not thier but i lied to my self with out knowing until i sat down on the chair and though about it i can't believe tears just came out.

Now we are together again but she told me she is so happy we are together but what i said to her echos for ever in her head and her love slowly dying. It hurts to know i feel full regret i want to be with her. I know thier are alot of girls out thier but you know once you meet the girl that fits in all thr requres ment you want to keep them. I don't think i will ever forget her even if i tried. Also i found out i have a weak heart and she has that chuma which i knew earlier but not my weak heart it also kind of scary to think one day that heart will stop and you can't breath and die..right now it hurts while i m typing.

If i had a choice i wish i can just be with her. Now it even harder she moving up to the hills it like 1:45 min drive i don't mind that even if i only got to see her for 1 min it all worth it. Also her uncle is comming to australia and her mum offered to give my gf mobile phone ot him and thier won't be any other way to contact her. The only way is by email and by driving but i m on my " L "..it so hard now i think i'm gona go with my plan leaving Adeaide if any one know where that is, it in Australia-> South Australia-> Adelaide i m going to go to Melbourn after i finish Yr 12 which is in 1 year and a half or uni thier and of coure stay thier for a while as well.

Am i a chicken? running away? but i serousle can't take it even when i left her i felt so so sad hmm..i'm weak huh? o yeh i forgot to mention this but i told her i thier only a little piece in my heart that was loss in the maze and it finaly made it wat out even tho it small it feel so big enough for to still jump and block a bullet. Oh when she came over i felt like she was that girl i knew 4 years ago the nice and caring one..

I need help thorugh this...Am I weak?..well that what i think

[Ellynn]

It sounds to me like you are saying whatever or thinking whatever just to justify how she treated u. You keep on giving her all these chances...while chances are she knows just what to do to keep you wrapped around her little finger....

But you know...maybe you two are meant to be together. If you can't see the truth and just keep making excuses for her....then thats your problem. We tried to help u see the big picture, but if you keep making excuses for the manipulative things she has done to you.....then sorry we can't help you..

You might think she has changed...but remember, she can just as easily change back to how she was not long ago. And well, then your stuck once again...

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thanks but yeh it over for sure she told me we can only be friends. That piece of love is not enough she said and yup i agree to her terms about just being friends with her well she said " you are 1 out of my 2 well not 3 cloose friends " we are now official just friends haha i feel better as well. Even tho i alrdy try to reason with but now i m accepting the truth.

You guys don't have post help reply and yeh..

Thanks any ways for all!!!

[Gigabitch]

Do you actually feel better? Aren't you upset that it all changed in a day? Your heart is remarkably resilient to take all this abuse and still keep getting back up for more.

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my heart hmmm my gf asked me that too she said i was heartless...the truth u said and i tell you why....even tho how much i don't want to break but that what makes her happy so i m accepting it.

[Gigabitch]

OMG! If she has mud on her feet, do you lay down in front of her door so she can wipe them off on you? Why is this okay with you? I'm not saying you two shouldn't break up- I think you should, but I wonder if your next relationship will be any different.

Nobody is heartless.

[Ellynn]

How can you be heartless if your for ONCE.....standing up for yourself and realize that u don't deserve to be treated like THAT??..

NOBODY DOES!!

She saying whatever she can think of to keep you... But honestly I think your doing the right thing by NOT getting back together with her. Who needs her drama and bullsh*t?

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yup i ended it only friends now. pretty good friends too i think but i get a strange feeling that she still doesn't see me as a friend. hmmm is it that hard to be friends with your ex. HEY i wonder does any one end up breaking with thier gf and being friends or good friends?