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Sorry about the long post, but I'm at a total loss as to what to do. So, to get to the point:
I've liked this girl for best part of 18 months now. We've always been good mates, but we have our spells where we wont see each other for months on end...which is a bit of a nuisance, but hey, we have our own lives.
In Sept 05, this girl started going out with this lad, and is still with him now. However, during early Feb of this year, they split up for a couple of weeks after him doing a runner after her telling him she loved him.
During this spell, she came up to me in college, and unlike her usual chatty self, she came over to me, put her arms around me and kissed me on the cheek. I thought it was strange, and then found out later she had actually split up with this guy.
Anyway, a few days later it was Valentines Day and I had arranged for 12 red roses to be delivered to her. That morning I got a text off her telling me "happy valentines xx" and this was before she had received the flowers!
Anyway, we started texting, but before long, she and her boyfriend had got back together, and in college, i had gradually seen less and less of her.
Now, about 2 months ago, she text me asking to go to a gig with her, cos she had come across 2 tickets. She was still with her boyf and I thought it seemed odd that she didn't wanna go with him. Turns out, we didn't go in the end, purely because the act's that were on didn't really interest us. Upon reflection, it could well have been a ploy to spend time with me; I don't know.
Now, more recently, about 2 weeks ago, I invited her to my holiday home for a few days, to check out a university not far from there, and have a look round. She agreed and off we went, and me being the gent that I am, didn't pressure her, just treated her as a friend. Now when we were at the uni, she said 2 things that i thought were quite unusual.
1) "i don't even know why i've come really; i don't particularly want to come to this uni anyway"
2) when we were talking about uni being a year away, she mentioned her boyfriend and said "we probably won't even be together then" which would suggest that she's not looking at it, in a long term sense.
So anyway, after all these, what I'd perceive as hints, I don't know what to do. I'm going out my mind, desperate to tell her how I feel, but I don't wanna f*ck things up between us as friends, or look like a desperate infatuated stalker. It sounds so cliché, but I can't stop thinking about her either. I've actually written her a letter, but haven't sent it, and don't know whether or not I will. Argh!
Anyway, any advice, thoughts on it all, or previous similar experiences would be much appreciated.
Much love xx
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