somebody beat the shit out of me and tell me i'm wrong

ok i'm a little bit ****ed up right now. well, not a little--VERY ****ed up. for those of you that don't know me, i'm a wizard and a warrior. the warrior part makes me unstoppable to get what i want, and the wizard part makes me extremely calm about almost anything. and right now, for me to be so confused with what i want that i have to POST about what I want is--TOTALLY ****ed up. but anyways: here i go

(My quote: follow me: for i am the leader... now i need guidance.. so please lead me in the right direction)

i'm 14 years old and i'm in love with this girl named megan. she seems so perfect for just about everything! the very tint and contrast of her skin color, her heritage (being italian) is perfect cuz i'm trilingual and she speaks only one language and looks up to me, she's always asking me for advice, she's 5'2" which is ****ing PERFECT! 34B which is adorable and her toes look like short little stumps and her lips are filled and plump and she's skinny and she lets me kiss her belly and when i do she giggles and i can make her moan just by making out with her--omg she's so incredible. i love her to death! i have so many damn nicknames for her it's not even funny: like kitty, muffy, tiger--WHATEVER. we even steal each other's words and mimick each other.

when i was little, i used to want a blonde girl with big boobs that i could play with and was immature and funny to listen to, blonde at heart--you know, stereotypical blonde with no ass (like me) and big boobs. my first year of high school, 9th grade, i finally find her. Jordyn. daaaaamn. she lets me play with her boobs and in class when we watch a movie in the dark she plays with my nipples and made it hard lol and i know she likes me cuz she told me. we're really close--almost best friends seriously. she seems right for me in a lot of ways.

megan is more perfectly made for me in every way imaginable, more than jordyn--but here's the problem: megan ****s with my head sometimes. when megan was in 7th-early 8th grade she was rejected by this kid a year older than her. he's a worthless ****. boy scout nerdy BITCH with glasses and he's shy and he SUCKS with girls. the only girl that thinks he's KINDA cute would be megan, but megan thinks i'm extremely hott. another thing that makes megan awesome is that i'm her first boyfriend. you have no idea how much of a turn-on A++ that is to me. it's GREAT. but sometimes she doesn't know how to treat me as her boyfriend, which is the bad part--uh oh she just signed on. this is the type of convo we have to greet each other: (this was literally 2 seconds ago)

her: hey baby
her: ;-) whats up
LTsK8eR2gO: hey sexy
her: w00t
LTsK8eR2gO: not much and you?
her: just got home
LTsK8eR2gO: hehe my word!!!
LTsK8eR2gO: really? awesome!
LTsK8eR2gO: i'm in wuv wiff yew
her: yay
her: me 2!!

i swear to god i love that girl.. but lately she's been busy and hasn't called me for a while--it's always been me calling her. and i haven't seen her in 2 and a half weeks. we've been in several arguments this past time.


jordyn is like--my best friend. she's there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on, when i need to be teased, squeezed, hugged, and when i need my nipple hard

but.. with megan things are kinda going badly.. maybe they'll get better. i know i can make it better.



for those of you who are ****ing dumbasses and don't understand the point...

WHO THE **** DO I CHOOSE?!

i'm going insane



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quick update: just to let you know megan hates jordyn.

look:
her: jordyn on?
LTsK8eR2gO: possibly
LTsK8eR2gO: why
her: :-[ o
her: hav fun
her: night
LTsK8eR2gO: wtf
her signed off at 8:24:13 PM.
LTsK8eR2gO: she's not on
her signed on at 8:24:19 PM.
her: good
LTsK8eR2gO: don't go invisible
LTsK8eR2gO: lol
her signed off at 8:24:25 PM.
her signed on at 8:24:26 PM.
her signed off at 8:24:26 PM.
her signed on at 8:24:26 PM.
her signed off at 8:24:27 PM.
LTsK8eR2gO: lol
LTsK8eR2gO: dude why do you hate her so much
LTsK8eR2gO: she's like--my best friend
her: b/c she wants u
her signed on at 8:24:58 PM.
LTsK8eR2gO: my icon says TAKEN!!!!!!!!!!!
LTsK8eR2gO: which means taken by you
LTsK8eR2gO: i might as well have stickers all over me that says PROPERTY OF MEGAN!
LTsK8eR2gO: even in my profile it says megan is beautiful
her: i can arrange that
her: where>
LTsK8eR2gO: hehe!!!
LTsK8eR2gO: in my profile
her: o
LTsK8eR2gO: the main one
her: there it is

holy shit.. i just turned things around..

one second we're arguing, the next second.. just by ME: look:

her: i feel sick
her: i want to just shrivle up and rot
her: in a corner
her: and damnit
her: im being negitive
her: NO
LTsK8eR2gO: megan megan megan
her: ****
LTsK8eR2gO: you aren't
LTsK8eR2gO: you are being realistic
LTsK8eR2gO: you aren't negative
LTsK8eR2gO: ur one of the most positive girls i know
LTsK8eR2gO: ur always giggling
LTsK8eR2gO: when i'm with you depressed u cheer me up
LTsK8eR2gO: instead of the negativity being the one that spreads as usual in life
LTsK8eR2gO: ur positivity spreads onto me
LTsK8eR2gO: ur awesome
LTsK8eR2gO: don't think ur negative
LTsK8eR2gO: and down talk urself out of it either
LTsK8eR2gO: keep smilin' and giggling
her: alright...thank you
her: :-)
her: :-P
LTsK8eR2gO:
LTsK8eR2gO: sexy
LTsK8eR2gO: you know what you need...................
LTsK8eR2gO: *hugs*
LTsK8eR2gO: poopie
her: :-) *hugs XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOX*
her: thank you
LTsK8eR2gO: i love you
LTsK8eR2gO: ur so awesome
LTsK8eR2gO: thx for being the better version of ME
LTsK8eR2gO: my bright side
her: :-D yay
her: im nickys bright side
LTsK8eR2gO: hah
her: im a sunny happy nerd
LTsK8eR2gO: LOL!
her: *goofy grin*
LTsK8eR2gO: hah
LTsK8eR2gO: go u
LTsK8eR2gO: hottie
her: :-) woOt
her: :-P
her: tee hee

[Darkace]

GO WITH MEGAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! r u stupid u love her do u love jordyn i dont think so by the way u posted i think u just like playing with her vice versa now il beat u up if u want me to i know what city u live in lol

[Darkace]

and im close to it (4got to ad)

[kronos51]

Heh, well it sounds like maybe she can tell that you are trying to choose between them. If you want my advice just forget about anything with the friend, and stay with the girlfriend who seems to care about you.

Also, I dont know your girlfriend, but seeing as youre only freshmen in highschool (and believe me, I know that age does not necessarily dictate maturity), and you are her first boyfriend, it seems she is just very scared, and sees you as someone smarter and more experienced, and thus worries that you may find her level of experience and intelligence unworthy and move on. Just try reassuring her more, and it probably wouldnt hurt to make sure you choose her over your friend Jordyn if the opportunity arises. That goes a long way to show her that you love her

Quote:

GO WITH MEGAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! r u stupid u love her do u love jordyn i dont think so by the way u posted i think u just like playing with her vice versa now il beat u up if u want me to i know what city u live in lol

i love you man hahahah
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However, I don't want to smother her. Normally on a first date or something you kinda are far away, make smart ass comments (I'm a pro ), and kinda mocking PLAYFUL not mean for example:

if she wears big loop earrings, you would:
"you know what they say about girls that wear those earrings?"
"what's that?"
"they're too poor to afford real jewelry so they use their bracelets."
then she looks shocked then kinda smiles
"oh i see, ur smiling, that must mean.. OH MY GOD! ARE ALL THE RICH GIRLS TAKEN OR SOMETHING?!?!" then turn around and walk off casually and she'll grab ur arm i swear.

but, i'm not so sure it works in a 8-month relationship too much. i'm extreeeeeeemely mature for my age and megan knows it. so playfully making fun of her isn't really...appropriate now. and if I smother her she'll back off (basic human psychology ).

so HOW exactly should I be towards her? i know you guys say "just be yourself" but i'm a ****in' skitzo hahah. should i just be the ME version #1 where i make everyone laugh their asses off? should i be ME version #2 where i get extremely cuddly and fall asleep on her lap while we're under the blankets watching a movie? or ME version #3 where i tickle her to death and we start wrestling on the floor? or should i be the ME version #4 where i'm an innocent little angel (especially in front of her mom.. god i love that woman). there are just... way too many possibilities.

this is the cool part:
YOU can make a FREE* customized LTsK8eR2gO version towards his chick in a matter of MINUTES! Just press that Reply button and type away!!

(batteries sold seperately)

[Darkace]

lmao i love the last part i see what your saying but it seems sooo cruel to say those things but your a pro so i trust u lol now as far as being yourself i think alittle of all would be good but when to apply them is up to u but i bet u know when since your a "pro" and all lol jk but just use your different versions when the time is right and it will all be good but i tend to like version 2 sry im a diff type of guy not a horny little bastard that most girls prolly think i am lol and so your battery operated lol i had to say that

YES!!! i'm battery operated. MWAHAHAHAH!!!

i need to be recharged now

[kanzaki]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Darkace

lmao i love the last part i see what your saying but it seems sooo cruel to say those things but your a pro so i trust u lol now as far as being yourself i think alittle of all would be good but when to apply them is up to u but i bet u know when since your a "pro" and all lol jk but just use your different versions when the time is right and it will all be good but i tend to like version 2 sry im a diff type of guy not a horny little bastard that most girls prolly think i am lol and so your battery operated lol i had to say that

whatttt?????

[kanzaki]

hmmmm

*gets stick*
*shove it right on Lts's fore head*
*stop on him*
*lye him down flat on the road*
*drives RX-8 over him*
*use him as a speed bump*

there....nice beating?

oh btw, you are wrong.

Now does that answer your topic?

p/s>> go for megan!

ok this is ****in' w/ me!! she said we would do something today and i find her friend is over at her house and they're doing something!! GOD DAMNIT! i hate that bitch sometimes!

[blue]

LT,
wtf is wrong with you ? i thought you love megan?

[kanzaki]

ai? wth is going on?

i mean, so what if she say he would do smtg with you 2day? i mean, so her friend is over. SO? I dun think she will totaly ignore you 100% rite?

unless what she means is sex....then i have no comment

[kronos51]

heh, sometimes girls forget man. It hurt me alot when my gf used to forget about things we had planned to do, cuz it made me feel like i was unimportant to her. Perhaps you should just talk with her and ask how things got mixed up. Mature conversation is always the best solution my friend.

[kanzaki]

i recall how terrible my bf feels when i forgot out dates. it took me more than enough just to cheer him up again

anyway, there mite b a chance that the girl happen to drop by or it is very urgent