| Whats wrong with me? Ok im about to turn 20 and Im a complete virgin. I dont know why but I dont want to lose my virginity. So Im talkin to this girl that I knew from highschool on the internet, so I send her a picture of me and she thinks im hot. She then takes a pic for herself and sends it to me and she was lookin hot as well. She then said that she was coming down and wanted to meet up for lunch. I took her to this little Japansse place quiet and nice, good food, she seemed to be haveing a great time and we didnt eat much because we were talkin alot. I havent seen this girl in 2 years. So we part and she give me a real "firendly" hug. Then she calls me today, at first I didnt answer her 3 calls and I felt guilty so I called her back. So I call and she came over, my firends and I were workin on our RC cars. About and hour later or so my firends figure they better leave because they know Im a virgin and want me to "hook up" with this girl or any girl for that matter. They leave and me and this girl sit an watch TV for about and hour and she obviously liked me because she sat almost right next to me. In my mind I think "I think shes hot.. but I know I cant make a move.. I guess Ill wait to see if she make a move then Ill just let go."
Well and hour later she desides to make her move she gets my attention and looks into my eyes smiles I smile back she lays on me and I freeze. I think "Umm...........................WTF DO I DO......" she sits there for about a min before she relizes I wont move or try to get more comfortable with her. She gets up gets her bag and walk back to me and goes to sit and before she sits down I say "You leavin?" and she replys "I have to otherwise Ill stay way to long." So I walk her to her car thinking "WTF why cant I do this, why whats wrong with me". We get to her car she give me this long deephug that I try to pull out of but she trys to pull me back but I broke lose. I said "Have fun at college" she replys "Have fun with your car".
This isnt the first time this has happend. I liked this other girl but she didnt care for me, what if she did like me I would of done the same BS. Ill never lose it my virginty, im 20 and i never even kissed or cuttled with a girl. This girl was perfect she is 19, pretty face nice curves a nice body not a super hot babe but I know because Im so ****ed up I put her picture on hotornot so I could find out what 332 people thought she looked like. Everything pointed to good, she only has had one partner her X and how she just wants to fool around with someone.
I just blew off the perfect way to lose my virginity, so I now sit alone in my room with my parents gone. Just trying to figure out what in the world is wrong with me. I can dream about it but when reality is right in front of me I cant face it.
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