Finally See


With a sense of failure and regret
I realize the time has come to be strong again
That it won't be long until the strength
Gained from new love will make my life clear again

Instead of weak and pleading for
Your love in place there will be
What always I'm begging for
What I so need I'll now have

Maybe you'll finally see what was wrong
You'll see I can be strong and
I'll do things right this time
Maybe you'll cry just like you made me

Just wait and you'll see I'll be okay
I have before and I will do it again
Remember it was you that gave the lessons
That unknowingly set us both free

You loved me first so very good
As you promised it would be
Only now you're more than lacking
And so badly leaving me only to beg

Pleading for your time and love
Left here with time and empty hands
Hungry, craving and wondering
Where is the guidance
The direction I so need

You've unlovingly ruled me
Until your own inattention gave
Only empty hours to open my
Lonely eyes to the love
That was craved and needed

Begged attention and love you
Withheld from me for reasons
Never learned or known
Someone else gave willingly

The pain of lonliness shook me until
I'm finally free and it made me at last
Get up off my knees to survive
To be what your inattention forced me to be

I've gained a loving man that wants me
Only for me as once I could be
Until I listened to you and you
Made me exactly what you wanted me to be

Only to leave me alone and open for
Another love to set me free
You thought you could slow me down
And hold me without feeding my need

Maybe now it's your turn to hurt as you hurt me
Finding me broken and hurt
You promised to fill my each need
Only those wonder filled days were few

In their place came days of worry and blame
Leaving me alone and lonely
Free and open to fill anothers need
Unfulfilled needs of mine met finally

You've kept me living in a world
Of your controlling fantasies
Yet the very solitude and pain of your own creation
Allowed me to finally open my eyes

To see what I really need to be