finding myself - Love Forum

squirrley · #1 (**permalink**) 03-04-04, 11:03 AM

Ok Innova you got me going my friend...

Im so thrilled I am not in the days of sad or blue
I have looked back and realized a temporary flu

My life has taken me in a different direction I didnt expect
but keeping true to myself is all I want kept

Ive always maintained a sense of pride
even through the rocky roads I gave my best try

times have been very difficult to me
but God has always made me feel I would always see

even when i was in the darkest days of depth
id find myself spinning and always wept

but after years of seeing how i want to be
theres a true sense those days have been set free

I can look at myself in the mirror today
no longer see the scared woman, shes gone away

My fears, those memories that use to haunt
are no longer an issue and it was alot

from a little girl to whom I am now
i know ive come along way and I am proud

I know how I want my life to be
only i can account for it, its my responsibilty

my expectations only come from within myself
you cant teach it, sell it, or buy it on a shelf

and I know my life is great as it stands
it might just fall, but I know He has my hands

I have the will and strength to be alive
because everyday is a great day that goes by

So tomorrow morning when I look into my mirror
I know and see my life that much clearer

Innova · #2 (**permalink**) 03-04-04, 11:16 AM

Awesome poem Squirrley, and I'm glad you found the strength, as well as the lession learned.

squirrley · #3 (**permalink**) 03-04-04, 11:51 AM

thanks Innova..pulled that one out of my ass tonight...but life is a lesson in itself...

BillyGalbreath · #4 (**permalink**) 03-04-04, 12:02 PM

Very nice !

I wish I felt like that hehe

squirrley · #5 (**permalink**) 03-04-04, 12:04 PM

You will my friend...

BillyGalbreath · #6 (**permalink**) 05-04-04, 11:54 PM

you were right

I am a totally new person today !

squirrley · #7 (**permalink**) 06-04-04, 08:49 AM

now try and do that EVERYDAY!!!

jane · #8 (**permalink**) 06-04-04, 11:57 PM

great poem Squirrley!

Life lessons are the hardest to learn... I am finding that out the hard way but .. like my sig says.... " Better to love and lose then never love at all... "

BillyGalbreath · #9 (**permalink**) 07-04-04, 01:55 AM

I would rather have never loved at all

squirrley · #10 (**permalink**) 07-04-04, 07:26 AM

youre right Jane! I would rather love and lose, than not love at all!!!

BillyGalbreath · #11 (**permalink**) 07-04-04, 10:34 PM

so you would rather have been hurt than to never been hurt ?

squirrley · #12 (**permalink**) 08-04-04, 02:35 AM

ya know Billy I cant tell just HOW BAD Ive been hurt, but Im glad it happened. Taught myself a few things...what I want and what I dont want! The pain eventually goes away, and you might not forget, but you move on, and thats the beauty of life...

you keep going...

BillyGalbreath · #13 (**permalink**) 08-04-04, 02:44 AM

I am not glad I have been hurt...

I did not learn anything from my relationships except for people always change - and you never know how they are going to change

One thing that has not changed is what I am looking for in a woman - Honesty and Loyalty - plain and simple

If I would have never been in love I would still feel the exact same way - just without the pain and bad memories - and yes i do have good memories - but the good memories seem to be hurting me even more than the bad ones because I miss those days... I rather have never lived those days for then I would not hurt because I miss them...

squirrley · #14 (**permalink**) 08-04-04, 02:59 AM

Billy- I stayed and remain single because of NOT wanting to get burned or deal with the pain. But this last year I had had enough and knew I was ready to go out and start again. You will get there.

BillyGalbreath · #15 (**permalink**) 08-04-04, 03:15 AM

maybe ... hopefully...