::Life changing Heart breaking news::
One day she finally told me something that effected me till this very day something that broke my heart to a million pieces, she said “ I moving to Oklahoma with my dad” as soon as I heard that I felt I was going to stop breathing. The girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with is moving away to a place that I couldn’t even visit her at. I am crushed, I am hurt, I am pathetic and useless. I am losing The one thing most important to me the one person truly dear to me. The everything about her that made my life complete is going to be gone. Felt like losing more then a lover it was like losing a best friend, a homie, the part that completed me. I was devastated and desperate a thousand ways I came up with to try and make her not leave, a thousand ways that simply just wouldn’t work because nothing was going to change this painful fact. Well later the night as I left her house I still couldn’t stop thinking about it all and it made me tear up and I felt like a helpless child, I know im a strong person and scared of nothing but why is it when it comes to this girl I feel so helpless. The silent tears the couldn’t stop killed me slowly. I continued to see her every day not missing one because I had to make the best of the time I had left with her. I have so many memories about the things that made me give her my unconditional love I remember when I got sick and couldn’t get out of bed but still wanted to see her badly and couldn’t so I called her and talked to her on the phone but I fell asleep while on the phone only to wake up hours later to her waiting for me to wake up on the phone she didn’t hang up and that just simply melted my heart it felt like she stayed up to look after me, that was the nicest thing a girl has ever done for me.
:: All the stars in the sky, couldn’t mend my broken heart::
::But I didn’t even get One Last Kiss…::
Along with her goodbye present to me was a message inside that said All the stars in the sky couldn’t mend my broken heart a message that I would never forget. I asked her to not break up with me and begged to make this work but I could tell she only said yes so I wouldn’t be as hurt. All good things must come to an end as my lasts days with her did too. Tomorrow she was leaving and I got to take them to the airport and I remember arriving at her house a little early to be confronted by her dad and he told me to just leave they had a ride already and I stared at him ready to cry already and with a little hate because I didn’t understand why he disliked me. Did he really not care how I truly cared for his daughter and would give her anything, why didn’t this guy give me a chance, well her mom persuaded him to let me drive them to the airport. As we arrived and got her luggage out all I got was a hug and a wave, not even one last kiss. I couldn’t believe all of this was happening and that this day was finally here I was standing at the drop off zone staring at her dumbfounded for an expression for a feeling I was lost. Sort of like when I first woke up to know that she was really my girlfriend except right then It felt like I just awoke from a nightmare that continued into reality. I sat in my car and watched her leave.
:: I am lost, crying, and driving to I don’t know where::
Leaving the airport driving by myself all alone. That’s when everything hit me all at once all the tears I held back in front of her family all came out. I was ready to drive off the freeway and end my pain. I wasn’t sure where to go I just didn’t want to be alone and I drove to the pool hall crying all out in front of everyone it didn’t matter to me who was there I couldn’t stop because it hurt so bad and no comfort from anyone I knew could ease my tears or make me feel better. So as I got home that night all I did was wait for her to call when she arrived. I really missed her.
:: As the days without her went on::
Finally after what seemed like an eternity I got a call from her. That was the only thing that brought me a smile. So as the days went by we couldn’t call everyday because of the phone bill and had to keep in touch through letters, the letters were the only things keeping me sane. I remember her dad telling me to read this book and write a 2 page summary about it then give it to her mom but I didn’t do it partially because I had a small disliking for her father who never gave me a chance and I blamed him for taking her away from me. Every letter I received from her only told me that she was slowly drifting more and more from me, and every letter I replied had tears in them. I still missed her whole heartedly and every night when I showered I look at the scar on my chest from her that is still there till this day.
::What I feared eventually came::
What I feared most wasn’t only her leaving me it was her meeting someone new and breaking up with me for him, but of course that day came and a part of me died when I received that letter. All the things I tried to do and all the things I didn’t do, I regret like not doing that summary her dad asked me too, I regret not waking up earlier every morning to go see her while she was still here, and I blamed myself for going on that stupid trip that let someone get her before I got too. So what now? Now shes gone and all I had left were regrets, she was no longer mine and I have nothing.
:: To move on or not to move on::
Did I move on ? Did I find someone new? Yeah I found someone else, No I definitely didn’t feel close to the same because what I felt for Daryle was incomparable in all aspects. I told myself to let time do its thing and eventually it will all fade from you. How wrong I was I admit with this new girl we did have fun times but everything fun we did I said to myself it would have been better with daryle. So after 3 years with this girl I realized I shouldn’t keep wasting her time it wasn’t going to get anywhere it was no fault of her just myself and in those 3 years there wasn’t a day I didn’t think of daryle. As creepy as this may sound when I was bored sad or lonely I secretly drove to where she used to live and see my name on the tree that I wrote with her but after a couple years even my name got crossed out. I sat outside her old house and thought back on the times we use to have. I really meant no harm and just felt lost and alone. Despite how I kept trying to stay in touch with daryle I could tell that I was bothering her so I just kept everything to myself. Up until a year ago I found out you moved back to vegas and I thought our promise would still be there that if you ever came back you would give us another chance but turns out you were still with that guy leaving me to feel that it was all hopeless still. I guess I could just say I lost the courage to throw myself at you like I once did when we first met because these last couple years were really tough on me.
::Hi daryle, nice seeing you again : P ::
Two or three weeks ago I finally had lunch with you it really was something nice thanks !
as I wrote this story I really hope I don’t scare or push you away and don’t take it the wrong way I already understand that you would never like me like again. Also don’t take this little story to heart because I don’t want you to ignore me again and lose you another time lol.
P.S. your just as beautiful as ever and i hope your bf treats you really good cause your worth it. take care
first love....it's sad 
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