I used to enjoy games but it just hasn't been on my mind at all. Now all I think about is saving for the future, working, helping my family, and ...yuck...I keep thinking about a relationship and ...I actually thought about the idea of kids already....kind of a shame I can't seem to sit down and enjoy some good games anymore ...I get anxious and tense to want to do something more productive. .... something needs to give. I need to be able to relax again.

Trust me indi. Take it from a person who has played bored games and computer games and it just isn't the same thing. A video game offers an interactive experience like no other, but yes...board games are far more social. Video games are just like movies but you get to interact and be in it. They are fun, entertaining, but the problem is they are time consuming like a mofo and just feel like a waste.

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Always and never are two words you should always remember never to use.

find a big internet cafe or zone. the spectrum varies alot from place to place.

Yeah Frasbee I'm on the same trip. I've been finding my feet in a funky seaside town in the UK. I've found myself a place to live, and I start a new job tomorrow. It's a really satisfying feeling. Like you, the only piece missing is friends. My job is shitty call centre work so I'm hoping it'll be full of young drifters like me.

I love goin' off a clean slate, but I undeniably miss the comfortable routine from home.

Y'know, I day dream about playing videogames now.

And not just sitting down for like an hour or somethin' and playing a little bit of something. I mean spending an entire night, or weekend with my friends, together on a couch, or on-line just getting sucked into a game without a care in the world.

Now? Right now I can hardly stop moving.

After I took my aptitude test for that state employment program, I definitely could've just taken the rest of the day off. But I keep thinking I can't waste time not making money.

I really wanted to spend the day just enjoying the beautiful 70 degree weather, but I get this pang of guilt about not making money.

It's gotten to the point where I'll work a half day on Saturdays. So I've only been taking a day off each weekend.

Amy thinks I should just chill out a bit. I do have a couple grand total amongst my bank accounts, I definitely wouldn't be hurting if I calmed down a bit. But I keep thinking, what if something happens? What if I'll need the money? I don't wanna see my money go down, I wanna see it go up.

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I need to just calm down and enjoy life a little.

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Heil Frasbee