Horoscopes For Today: 6/3/2004
This town just isn't big enough for you, whether you're living in a tiny village or a vast metropolis. Dreams are multiplying within your crowded brain. You have a ravenous appetite for new experiences. No one holds you against your will, although you're so attractive that many would try. You imagine yourself in different outfits and lifestyles. Accessorize creatively. New ideas and fashions come from people like you. Maybe it isn't your goal to be famous, but soon anyone who matters will know your name.
Godsmack - Release the Demons
What do you see in the dark
when the demons come for you
If only you could have seen
how ****ed up my life used to be
then everything starts to change
supposedly healing my pain
I never thought I'd feel this way
I never thought that I'd see a day
I'd run away from anything or anywhere or anyone
Its all these demons haunting me
Its all these little things trapped inside of me
Releasing me from all my sin
Its taken me all my anger
And taken me all of my hate
To learn how my life came together
Releasing the demons again
And now I look through my minds eye
And see where my past needs to rest
Its always disturbed by these voices
That echo inside of my head
Another way that I can hide
Another reason to crawl inside and get away
from everything and everywhere and everyone
NO!
Its all these demons haunting me
Its all these little things trapped inside of me
Releasing me from all my sin
Its taken me all my anger
And taken me all of my hate
To learn how my life came together
Releasing the demons......again
Facin the days as I grow into my own
Loving and hatings the same
And three-fold I told you
it comes back with laughter
Over and over again
Its coming back
Its taken me all my anger
And taken me all of my hate
To learn how my life came together
Releasing the demons again
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Well for the past week I have been slowly tearing in two. I was holding oin to two fidderent things that I did not want to let go of. To very opposites that were drifting apart faster and faster.
In one hand I was holding onto my past that I didn't want to go back to, but for some reason I just did not want to just let go of everything I worked for so long to get, or should I say loose. In the other hand was an old love that came back into my life recently, but she is engaged. I wanted her back and she wanted me back, but she didnt want to leave her man. It made me look at my other hand really closely to see if it was worth holding onto. Then when I looked back at my other hand I saw things that I didnt see before.
I saw the big picture then. Not just what was in my hands, but of everything around me. Thats when I made my decision.
I let them both go. I released my hands and let myself fall to the ground. When destine left me I was falling towards the ground fast. And I kept trying to grab onto the roots sticking out of the cliff beside me as I fell. I snatched one and started to climb back up. Then Andira came to my other side in a helecopter (or somethin, lol) and I grabed onto it. But I never let go of the root that was in my other hand either. I had never hit the ground completely before. I was close. But I started to climb back up the cliff.
Now I am on the ground. Alone. The beginning. A fresh start. Now I will stand up on my own two feet flat on the ground. Then I shall prepare myself for my own mountain when it comes.
hehe - I hope you guys like my little analogies. Its the only way I can seem to put my thoughts into words. Thru analogies and poems and songs.
But like alexi said in another thread, Here's to a new beginning!
*raises up coke can again* CHEERS !
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