Because it told me that I am on the right path. When I read it I was uncertain where my life was going. I felt as though I was doing things that made my dad happy and killing myself inside... But it told me I am doing things correctly and not to get big headed. That the thing I have been waiting for is comming soon. And when it gets here, all this work that I have been doing is going to have me all prepared for that moment...
Speaking of which - this morning something happened and it didnt strike me at first - but I have been thinking about it all morning and I have figured it out now.
This morning as I was putting my stuff and Bryce in the car a really cute girl that was about 18 years old walked past me and she looked right at me in the eyes and smiled and said 'hi'. She said it as tho she had known me... I didnt know who she was so I just said 'hi' and smiled back. I wanted to ask her if she needed a ride. That would have given me more time to talk to her at least. But I was WAY to nervous to talk to her. Well, later this morning I got to thinking about her. I remember her face perfectly. And I now know who she is. Back in junior high school there was this girl that was 2 or 3 years younger than me that lived on the street behind mine. We were ok friends, but I mainly was friends with her friends. We all would hang out at her house. I remember very well playing Mario on her SNES. Even when all the other kids were gone, it would be just me and her playing Mario. Back then I had a really big crush on her but I never told not one sole. I was a fat little kid. And she was a bit chubby too if I remember correctly. And I dont date chubby ppl. lol. Well, I remember her eyes. She had beautiful eyes that always made me look at her twice. I think the eyes are what attracted me to her most. Well, this girl I saw today was super hot, and she had the exact same eyes. Same hair color, same skin complection (whiter than most ppl with little freckles everywhere, hehe, very cute), and same walk. But she had boobs when I saw her today, lmao. She's all grown up. I dont really remember her age, but she is either 17 or 18. And after work today I am gonna drive by her house and see if I see her again. I aint gonna just walk up to the door unless I see the same girl I saw today. But yeah. She looks like a girl I would date. And if she has the same attidute and personality as she did many years ago then she would be the perfect girl I would date. Hell, I would marry her.
Well, anyways. I think this has something to do with my horoscope from last friday. I am not sure yet still. But over the weekend I did clean myself up even more so than before. I have a haircut, and I practiced throwing pitches (baseball) saturday and sunday for a grand total of about 16 hours. I find that me throwing baseballs really get my arms up and huge for a few days - I am gonna start throwing everyday after work to get my arms up and then my plan is to keep them up by not taking a day off. This also might even get them bigger. And eventually they are gonna get big enough to where if I do take a day off it wont go back down. Hopefully... Thats the plan anyways. I was gona join a gym but they are too damn expensive. I'd rather go pick up a car a few times to lift weights than to pay a place $300 for me to join and then pay $50 a month to stay... thats just bull crap....
Hmm... yeah - but thats why I cried... I got way off topic here. lmao
BTW - Billy is very very happy today !!!!!

Can ya'll tell ?!