Yeah. you heard me. In the past 10 minutes I just took the first biggest step of my life. I have always walked down this path looking for something, always searching for something better, soaking up every peice of knowledge that I can along this path. Well, this morning while standing outside my job smoking a cig, I had an epiphany. This job is great that I have, yes. I will evenutually move up the ladder and make even more money than I am now. This is all true. But Its still not as high as I would like to be. Then I was thinking about that site "Hot or Not" and all other dating sites, how to get something that you want, you're gonna have to pay a price. Then thats when it hit me. To make more money and get the things that I truely want out of life, I am gonna have to pay a price.
ITT Tech is the school I have dreamed about since high school to graduate from. I dont really care which area of study I go in for, I am basically good with everything. But if I go to the school and learn more about what I already enjoy doing in my spare time, then I could graduate with a degree and do what I love to do and get paid big bucks for it.
Well, after my smoke break I came back to my desk and called the school and setup an interview date. I will be going on campus on July 31, 2004 at 11:00am CST to tour the campus (visit the labs, etc), speak with the financial aid administrator, and speak with the career service personnel.
The hardest step is always the first one, and I have taken it. Now I just have to get as much financial aid as possible and the rest will be easy. Even if I get loans, I would not mind paying them back after graduating. Or even doing monthly or weekly payments would not be bad.
I will go to school 4 or 5 nights a week after work, and have my weekends to myself to truely rest. I will continue to live at my dads house so that it will be easier on me and my son while I go to school. I will no longer worry about getting a date because I then will not have time for a g/f. I am soo ****ing excited I want to go run around in circles and just scream at the top of my lungs !
God damn it, why didn't I do this sooner ? This is going to be much easier than I had originally thought. It will still be hard because it will physically drain my body to be doing that much work (8 hour work day then going to school for 4 or 6 hours at night). But hell, its what needs to be done and I know it.
I have found my place in this era. This era is not ready to settle down into anything, but it is ready to learn, grow, and progress for the era which is comming.
This is MY time to grow and everyone who thought I could not make it and that have hurt me along my path and pulled me down can just eat my ass and choke on my ass hairs and die. I will prevail. THIS is what has been comming my way tha tI have been waiting for. THIS is my fate. THIS is my life.
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