Thanks you guys, I just love the two of you

yeah, yeah, life's been a disaster lately, but I think I'm making it through, though last year was so much better, at least I had a boyfriend, who seemed to care a lot. Now I'm all alone.
You see, last year (well, actually one and a half year ago) my best friend went off to South Africa for two years. I just felt quite terrible without her, cause she's simply wonderful, and we were just like sisters. Then, last year I met my ex and we became really really close. (at least that's how I felt). Well, basically, now we broke up, but we're still friends, but I don't really know whether he really *does* wanna be friends with me, cause seems like he's totally dissapointed in me, and whatever peaked his curiosity doesn't bother him much lately. And anyway, I bet he just doesn't want to hurt my feelings and everything.
So, basically, that's it. All in all, I'm pretty lonely. Sure, I got lots of friends (and close ones as well) but all in all it's nothing like soulmates.
Some people are really trying to get me together with some other interesting people, but it's not like just because we're in the same group, we have to be soulmates. You know, somebody even once told me something like "Don't you think this person (whatever the name) is so nice? We all just really like him." Maybe I'm overreacting, but to me, it sounded more like "Don't you think you guys should start dating since you're over with your ex?" What am I, some kinda toy passing around from one owner to the other? I don't date or become close friends just with anyone just like that. Takes more than that. I don't sell short.