| oh - and speaking of the ex(s).
Robin is back in town from Cali. turned out she didn't go there to stay, but more of a visit with her fiancee. I haven't talked to her much, but i need to get with her and find out what she is doing for our daughters birthday. That way I know what I am going to do for her. Thats about it with Robin.
Now Destine on the other hand got a job (a crap one i might add), and she is comming up with all kinds of excuses for why she wants to change the visitation days from wed&sat to Sat&Sun... Well, this week I gave her the "ok" for sunday to make up for her day she missed wednesday because of work. Well, I had forgotten all about it and didn't leave the house before she got there. So for the first time in a long time she saw me in person. It was only for a split second and i didnt even look at her, I just walked out to the living room told my dad "I'll be back later." (i was going to go hang with Elena at that time) and then walked out the front door.
When I come home I found out from my dad that Destine is gonna try to get back with me. He told me to "prepare me", but it is good for me because it makes me feel superior to her because I have something she wants, but cant have. I dont know, made me feel kinda good to know that I can evenutally turn her down and get joy from it. hehehe - Destine was tlaking about how her b/f is getting fat and lazy and is always going out to bars and comming home drunk (if he ever makes it home), and I have gotten my shit together, i got skinnier and muscular. Destine was even saying some weird shit like she broke up with me because she knew I was gonna come to my dads and get my shit together and then she was going to get back with me. We DID talk about that, but I made one specification that has been broken. I told her to remain single, and if she could do that, i would think about it when the time came. But she got with a guy, prolly before i told her that, and then got pregnant by him, and now she wants to come crawling back - I DONT ****ING THINK SO. I'm happy where I am finally, I dont need her comming back into my life and ****ing it all up again.
I just thought I'd just throw that in - idky...
ANYWAYS ! God, people !! I am SOO ****ING HAPPY ! Remember when I had that dream where I was kissing Elena, and I woke up thinking to myself "i cant be falling for her, i just cant do it." -- well.. I've fallen for her. I wouldn't call it love just yet, but its getting there quickly. And I am loving it !
I WOULD write down all about her, but you guys dont care really. I mean, we match so perfectly. Its like this was meant to happen at this time, with all the variables in place. its all working out ****ing perfectly !
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