what's love got to do with it?

[misombra]

hi everybody.

does anybody know, or did tina turner ever figure it out? what the hell does love got to do with anything? i say nothing.

[nomas]

I did Tina Turner...and I can answer that..

Well, no, I didn't...and no, I can't, but I'll give you some comments anyway.

I had failed to realize there was a song about it but I've thought of this same thing too. Why do conversations more often than not eventually lead to "how's your love life?" or "how are the ladies treating you" or whatever the female equivalent to that question is...

Talk to someone on a personal level long enough and it ALWAYS ends up being a discussion about love.

The girl I've liked most ever in life once posed the question: "What do you want?"...just in general, she left it to interpretation...you know, one of those questions. At the time I felt I had a good answer..I said: "In short, I want a person". "My own person." Someone loyal to me. A life partner...commonly referred to as a wife. Likewise, I'd return the favor. Then she suggested...see, that's the problem.. we won't lead full lives untill we make ourselves "desireless".. The logic behind this is that we'll keep thinking we're incomplete until we achieve this goal, whatnot, and sure, that makes some sense...the counter argument is that we don't necessarily feel incomplete for wanting things and having goals to shoot is a good thing. Well, I really, really liked this girl so I tried to make sense of her theory and follow that. It was then that I realized..you know..maybe this whole lovelife thing is something that's just beat into our head since we're young....it's always a matter of when are you getting married...never if..you know?

But try as I may, the number one thought in my head at most times is girls. I can control my actions, but not my thoughts. It's not learned behavior..it's instinctive. I feel I'm a person with a LOT of control and I can change most things I want to change about myself, but this is something I'd be fooling myself to believe I can change.

So what's love got to do with it? Maybe everything, Sombra.

But this is just me..maybe someone else can truthfully dismiss love from their lives as trivial.

All I can say is it's in my mind, but I do try to balance it out by trying not to talk about the subject at EVERY conversation.

But once in a while I'll allow it.

Freds

[misombra]

hey nomas. i'm sorry about saturday, i hope you're not too mad at me. everything was going fine until saturday and my boyfriend began to act like a jealous, passive agressive jerkoff. all that build up for nothing. but it was good to meet you for just a little while at least. did you guys go to the guitar center? (i guess i could be telling you this in a pm but i'm lazy). i have to say, you're much better looking in person than in the pictures i saw. que cute esta! ontan los fotos?

[nomas]

Sombra,

You must be sorry about Friday night, since saturday night we made no plans together..but I knew what you were talking about.

No, I'm not too mad...I'm too forgiving, really...I believe in second chances..but watch out because I'm working on becoming more selfish and third chances will be harder to come by! You shoulda called!

Yeah, it was cool meeting you too, and I'm sorry it had to be a doctor's visit, but as it was we were only able to catch the last bit of that "Bomb the Capital" thing going on in Santa Fe..did you hear about it? It was like a Hip-Hop thing dealee-o at the state building, I think, with break dancers, spinners, taggers,..it was kinda neat.

Ha ha...I'm better looking in person than in pics?? Um, ¿¿thank you??, ha ha.. that's one of those weird kinda compliments..: You don't look nearly as crappy in person as you do in pictures, ha ha.. I'm just kidding, I know you didn't mean it like that..I'm not too good at receiving compliments...I'm always suspicious about their honesty. But I believe you mean what you say, sombra.

The pics...I didn't have time yesterday..I left kinda late, so I didn't get around to uploading the pics to my jumpdrive to bring to work and post here..but I will tomorrow, more than likely. Then again, I may just send them to you exclusively and make everyone else wonder what you look like, muhaha!! No, I'm too nice for that. Damn my good naturedness!!

So tomorrow they'll probly be up and the mystery of Sombra will be solved.

Freds